We have gotten into a rut. A rut that i truly hate and feel stuck in. I hate that we just sit in front of our computers at night. I'm always happy for the weekend but when it is over i never feel like i've accomplished something. I find myself thinking on my way home from work i'm going to DO something. Gonna get that done! But once i get home i just go to the office and sit.. staring at my computer. I get bored easily and i just keep sitting there. Not sure why.
When i woke up this morning i kept thinking about how i feel. I don't want to blame my husband for the way i'm feeling. It's not fair to him. I want these things done.. and i need to take responsibility for that and how i'm feeling about it as well. Perhaps getting myself out of my rut will help him as well.
So on the way to work today i kept thinking i need to do this for me. Do It For Me.. do it for me..
DO IT FOR ME!
Once I got to work i found a notebook and starting writing. I had to get this stuff out of my head. The About page is what i first wrote down.. then moved on to my Lists
So this is where it starts..
I want to do things because I want them done and hopefully doing this as a challenge for myself will help me stick to it and keep up some form of this in the future.
they are simple things.. clean the house.. cook more.. exercise.. read a damn book!
And as a bonus if it gets my husband out of the office more and doing things with me then fantastic! If not that is ok too.. this is about what I want.. not about what I want him to want..
I'm not going to be able to do much when i get home tonight since i won't be home till 11pm or so.. but i really want to put an effort in. I've also got a better book at home that i'm going to use to chronicle myself daily. I really like writing things down on paper first. It at least gets me going and i can add in more later.
I want this to work.. I want to Do It For Me....
